Wouldn't you love some right about now?

Random? But here I am wearing my favourite pair of socks to kindergarten.

EDIT: Tuesday Tales /Reasons why I annoy myself and you (maybe)

1. I'm absent minded. No joke about it...
I search for my mobile phone in my pockets while Im talking on my mobile.
I wonder why my glasses are not fogging up when Im eating hot soup because Ive forgotten that I dont have my glasses on.
I just missed my 1pm lecture because I totally forgot there was one in the first place.
I was looking at myself in the car's mirror and wondering why the heck I couldn't see anything clearly. I demanded that my friend turn on all the lights in the car and still I couldnt see clearly. Half an hour later, friend realises that Im wearing my freaking shades. DUH

2. I am a hoarder. I hate to throw anything that looks nice even though I have absolutely no use for it. the packaging from my microwave egg boiler? I still have it. The envelope that held the book he gave me? I still have it. The leftover wrapping paper that's too small to wrap anything? I still have it.

3. I have a way of messing things up, even when I start out with good intentions.

Me to You

I hate feeling like you don't want me around and that you're ashamed of me. I wish it didn't have to be so complicated. I wish ... I want to stop wishing because it's clear now that none of them will ever be granted but still, it is so difficult to let go.

Tomorrow is FRIDAY. I can't believe it. Looking forward to getting that medical appointment over and done with, arrival of electrician at 12 noon, learning about cells in the female reproductive system from 1-3pm and a movie in the evening.

Sometimes, one big thing brings me down but then I have all these other little things that cheer me up. They don't necessarily cancel each other out but hey, it's better than nothing.

Now, I am trying to stay up as my housemates are having pancakes and ice cream for supper. Oh I am so full but...its pancakes and ice cream. I'd be crazy to refuse.

Remember to remember me.

So last night after all the fun my housemates and I had, I sat down at the computer and started listening to a lecture on infertility.

Then it came. That awful pain in my left chest. My left arm got all tingly and before I knew it, my fingers were icy cold. I just sat and waited for the pain to go away but the pain was different from the last time. It wasn't sharp, it wasn't short. It was long and it ached.

My housemates came into my room and chatted with me, made me a mug of hot Milo and soon, the pain was bearable.

I got up this morning and my chest-shoulder region aches so bad.

I know it's not an infarction and it's not angina. I'm hoping its some muscular thing or nerve entrapment but I don't know if it happens along this region.

My heart rate was 88bpm, just me sitting on the floor. I checked my heart sounds this morning and both S1 and S2 were present and normal, regular and strong.

I have an appointment with the uni medical centre at 840am tomorrow morning. I hope I get up in time. They did not have any appointments today, only for urgent cases. I am thinking that what they mean by urgent is...if you are feeling unwell and need a medical certificate as you have a test today. If you dont have a test and you can just sit at home and afford to not get into trouble in uni, then youre not an urgent case. I almost said Alright, no thanks I wont have the 840am appointment but my auto mouth said yes.

I just feel so reluctant because when Im there, i will not be having these pains and they will probably just put everything down to stress. If youre in uni, and you have pains that arent supposed to be happening, youre either stressed or depressed. I hate stereotypes.

Last night I was scared to go to sleep because I was afraid that I might fall unconscious in bed and no one will know. Do my housemates know CPR? Lol. But, death doesnt discriminate and I could die right now while typing this.

What will I be remembered for? My pranks? My crankiness? My serious face? My ultra lame jokes? My love for chocolates?

I hope it's something good though.

I think I don't feel like updating about personal life anymore because that's just one huge mess. Someone convince me otherwise? hah.

Maybe just something useful from now on for everyone.

See y'all when I learn something new that I can share.

XOXO (to the girl readers).

Make my day, please?

SEND ME CHOCOLATES!!!