troubled times

so recently my life has been plagued with several bad episodes but nevertheless, i pulled through just to be knocked down again this morning.
this time, it involves Uni. we have this huge research project coming up that carries into 4th year and at the start of the year, I was asked by 2 of my classmates (let's call them A and H) to be part of their group. I agreed.
unfortunately, the 2 of them were under the impression that we were supposed to be working in groups of 4 so recently, they asked a buddy of theirs (IM) to join the group.

this morning, the research project coordinator mentioned that only groups of 3 were allowed and pair work would only be granted for the 'leftover' students who were groupless.

perhaps IM didn't know that I was part of the group but he took that opportunity to reaffirm his group membership by telling H that he, H and A were going to work together. H agreed and I'm like WHOA. Are you guys actually ditching me when I'm seated right here in between the 2 of you??

H felt a little bad but what could he do? He mentioned that ok, we'll kick IM out and take you in but I said no because that won't solve the problem. Someone will still be groupless and even though I'm upset, it's not really IM's fault because H should have mentioned that I was part of the original 3.

So ok, I was feeling a little down and I had hurriedly sent SMSes to everyone I knew in the lecture hall asking if anyone needed a 3rd member. Unfortunately, everyone already filled their 3 spots.
I know that the project coordinator will help to pair me up with someone but I would have liked to work with my friends...

What made me feel worse though was when IM mentioned that he was going to have a piece of brownie at H's house. He then said to me that I should have given H and A brownies so that they would have chosen me instead. I'm like EXCUSE ME?! I baked those brownies and I gave it to them!!

I know this sounds petty and really childish but come on, you took my spot away from me and then you say something like that....anyone would have felt upset. Anyway, if I have to give someone brownies just to make them take me in then I think I can find better friends elsewhere.

I am not enjoying Uni at all right now.

I need a friend...like you wouldn't believe.

Abaya

I've been wearing the abaya on a daily basis for close to a year now. I wear it to Uni, I've worn it on shopping trips, when I watched movies, walked on the sand at the beach, cultured bacteria in the lab, examined 4 different patients in less than 8 minutes each, I've worn the abaya to the market, I've even worn it to sleep when I was too tired to change. I went to work wearing the abaya, been on a fishing boat in an abaya and climbed to the top of a steep hill at Rockingham in an abaya.
My point is that the abaya has not restricted my daily activities in any way. I wear it because it is comfortable. It is worn loose and therefore provides modest coverage. That being said, the abaya is elegant and available in different colors and designs. Modest doesn't mean dull.

This past month has been difficult for me with people telling me to quit wearing the abaya. They tell me I am young so I should be wearing dresses or jeans. Apparently the abaya makes me look old, dull and fat. They think I am insecure about my body and this is why I hide it in the abaya. Some say that abaya is meant only for Arabs.

I never knew so many people could be so wrong about one thing.

I wear the abaya because firstly it is clothing that I feel best covers what needs to be covered (when worn appropriately) on a Muslim woman's body. Secondly it is extremely comfortable. Thirdly, most of my abaya are made from material that does not need ironing and for a busy university student, this is a dream come true.

These are my reasons for wearing the abaya. I know that I can also wear jeans and long tops but I choose not to.

So let them say what they want to. Their words hurt but I know what I want and I have every right to choose what I think is best for myself. After all, it is just a piece of garment and sometimes I wonder if these people have nothing else to fret about.

Wearing the abaya makes me feel happy and it sucks that people who supposedly care about me are trying to take this happiness from me.

- iPhone blogging

I'm back with my family right now.
Exams were terribly difficult and the wait for my results is getting pretty stressful.
other than that, nothing eventful has happened to me.

That time of year again

Dad's here and despite the fact that I spent hours tidying my room, the first statement he made when he entered the room was... "WHY IS IT SO MESSY?!"
My heart is crushed :(

Australia wants to ban the burka. So few women wear them anyways and to focus so much time/energy on this 'security' topic seems like a total waste. Focus on other more important things like, the economy.

A christian politician was asked whether he wanted the burka banned to protect the women or just because he didn't like the look of the burka. He said he wanted it banned for both reasons but who are you trying to kid, mister? Have you ever spoken to a muslim woman wearing hijab/niqab/burka?

And, in case you haven't already heard, DELETE FACEBOOK!!! -way ahead of all of you :)

Wouldn't you love some right about now?

Random? But here I am wearing my favourite pair of socks to kindergarten.

The Burka- A Security Threat?

I was watching a weekend morning talk show and they were discussing if Australia might follow suit in banning the Burka. The main reasons were that the women were being opressed and that the burka posed a significant security threat.

There was a lady on the panel who seriously believed that burkas were a threat to national security because "you don't know what they could be hiding in there!" She went on to say that she has never seen a woman being truly happy while wearing the garment, since they have been forced by men to cover their faces. Young girls were also brainwashed into thinking that they have to cover up their faces and body.

1) So, that's why they scan my hijab at the airport! They're afraid that the round object at the back of my head could be something else (B-O-M-B) besides my hair tied up in a bun! But then again, I've seen girls with bun-less hijab heads also get scanned so maybe we have wires running under our hijab?

2) You've never seen a woman wearing burka happy because you can't see her smiling duh!

3) What about girls being brainwashed into thinking that showing off their bodies was the only way to be popular or socially accepted? There are not only half naked girls on TV anymore, they're COMPLETELY naked.

And Pauline Hanson doesn't want to sell her house to a muslim. *shocker!! lol, why would any muslim want to enrich her with a few million dollars anyways? I say, rich muslims everywhere, don't waste your money.